For those of you who do not know, the Custodian is my warden… monitoring my activities and behaviors… punishing me for protocol violations.
I am sure the Custodian would like nothing better than for me to sit idly in a corner of the world, like I see many other Banes do at the KTI facility, idly letting their sentence run its course. I ~will not~ be one of them.
I have decided to treat myself to a world tour… to take ownership of my banesuit and, to the extent possible, my Custodian, rather than let it control me. It was empowering, and quite a bit fun, to be a tourist, visiting New York and Paris today! It’s corny, I know. But to sit for the next 80+ online hours doing nothing will drive me insane.
My custodian punished me with a couple of protocol violations, but they were minor in comparison to taking control of my situation. I don’t suspect my Custodian has taken kindly to my “independence.” It’s just a feeling… like a whisper in a dream… but I don’t think it likes the fact that I am struggling against its control.
A quick word for my good friends – Spikey and Fi – who truly warmed my heart by offering areas of refuge over the past day. Also Sam, Kim and Dani, who together with Spikey and Fi are being so incredibly supportive – I love you all. :) It is tough, but easier knowing you are with me…
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We are are here when you need us T, I mean that.
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